Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

A part of me wants to fix it.

Stepping aside from the usual beauty post, I wanted to write a small personal post to relieve some of the stress that's been building up in me.

The one problem stressing me out right now are my friends. The sad thing is not only did I have my growing suspicions confirmed, but to finally see my friend in a whole different light; I am at the point where I can't see the good in her anymore.
Seeing her and another friend, who used to be SO close to each other barely talk anymore because of a certain problem neither want to address, I'm saddened by that fact.
After listening to my friend tell me the whole truth of what has been building up for months and months inside of her, I finally realized that it wasn't me who was trying to self destruct our friendship. I finally saw it as: "She doesn't think I'm worth the time to tell anything to."
And at that, I am THE most disappointed. To cheer people up, I go about sending them random facts of my day, or just to tell them how I'm doing.
To think that she doesn't even have the decency to tell me about any part of her life makes me... disappointed. What does our friendship even mean?

I'm torn, and it's become so hard to even face her.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Ridiculous - I hate group projects

Long story short, one of my classes has a group project, we were doing fairly well up until we got together to do group interviews (this is a human resources class, our project is to make a position, and interview other classmates), there was a clash of personal opinions between two of our members (a girl and a guy), which led to an argument, and we ended it because we had other things to do.

Two weeks ago in a small group meeting, a (different) girl in our group passively brought up that topic - thinking that we were all adults and had gotten over the fact - which led to another huge fight.
Honestly this fight was the crashing point for our group. When you put two head strong people together, fighting over the difference of opinions, add in the fact that they are both unwilling to budge unless the other person does, it turns ugly, FAST. It didn't help that it was only us three Asians - who are quiet and really had no opinion on the matter - sitting there watching this unfold.
It got to a point where things became on a personal level, name calling happened and just all hell broke loose. We have two weeks left of school, and NOW is when our group "falls apart"?!

Today we had a group meeting to finish up the final report, we were told in advance that the girl wasn't going to come, fine, whatever, she was going to edit the whole thing. Works for us. What we didn't know was that the guy wasn't showing up. Clock turns 12:40PM and we decide, fuck it, we're not waiting for him. All of us were extremely disappointed in the fact that he didn't even make the effort to contact any of us, but we moved on. A couple of hours later the girl gets a text from the guy saying he was sick, and if he could send all his information to her to read.
... But WE were working on the final report, it'd make more sense to send it to us. He didn't even bother to look up our numbers to find out and contact any of us! What the hell.
Regardless she sent us a text telling us what he said, and we were like oh what the hell, he didn't even tell us.
THEN she called us and asked if we should essentially kick him out of the group. He was extremely irresponsible, worked on barely anything, didn't bother to contact us and just showed up when it was an important date. So in a way there was a bit of truth in what she was saying, but at the same time, this project is worth 21%, to kick him out of the group now when there's two weeks left in school is quite harsh, he could honestly fail this course because of us. I don't know about you guys, but that felt like a burden to me, I don't think I could live with the guilt of possibly failing someone...

Anyway the main point of this rant was to say that I text him saying to send us his stuff because we needed some ideas, and the stuff he wrote pissed me off.
He said that writing the job description and analysis was "tedious, dull, and repetitive". UHH, from what I remember, HE never helped out at all. The first time we got together as a group he wasn't present. When we decided to type up the final copy he "went to his car" and disappeared making us type up all of the information. He also said that because of some heated debates, it left members angry and upset.
Truthfully if either of them dropped the topic, this whole problem never would've happened.

The fact that neither of them got that point is annoying, and it really put the rest of us in a difficult position because we're trying to appeal to both sides, but it's hard because of the tension.

Rant over, it's late and I really should get my 5/6 hours of sleep before cramming in more.... school.

Posts of a haul coming in probably about 2 weeks.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

April showers bring May flowers

And while I would love to believe in that saying, I'm afraid where I live it's completely different.

This was around last week? 

Lovely isn't it? I had a fun time as well. Going through the snow, driving, puddles, yay!
Just kidding, but in all honesty, it was pretty crappy. It was more of a 'wet' snow, so it was heavier and pretty much melted upon impact. 
For some reason, it always seems to be terrible weather when I have to work/go out for the day. Yet when I'm inside at home just vegging out, it's always beautiful weather.
I guess in a way, that is a sign, but you know there are always those days where you just want to relax and rot for the day.
That's been my past couple of weeks. Lucky for me, it actually snowed yesterday and a little bit today. But the weather got better and most of it melted away. :)

Another update tomorrow! Hopefully. :)